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Sunday, November 22, 2009

don't deny it. i know you want me ;)

^^ me & the kids.

i miss these two girls. the last time i paid them a visit, Baby was sick and she was vomitting a lot. she wasn't herself and only laid down to rest. time flies so fast. they're all grown up already. Kakak almost starting primary school. that means i've known them for so long. sometimes i really miss them cause of the lack of company of the kids. with them around, the atmosphere is so different. very keco. very gerek. very tiring. very happening gitu la... so anyways, i'm sad :(

speaking of which, i've been reading the newspaper and there have been so many cases of murder-cum-suicidal death among singaporean families. mainly, it involves either parents (mom/dad) who kill their little ones before ending their lives. i find it unbelievable cause as parents, don't you love your kids?! don't you at least have pity on them?! don't you even have the right of mind to think that they've got such a long way to go in life?! omg. i really don't understand. even all their reasons to kill them are full of bullshit. you wanna kill yourself don't bring your kids along to suffer because of your sins la bodo!

i keep forgetting to give ma'am my photo. it's been so busy at the outlet, so tak dapat chance arhh nak bereskn tuu semua. nanti2 boleh. yesterday, i did closing with the rest. first time work, kna buat closing. pehh penat!! and it's really not a good idea to work until closing sia. cause when there's shortage, you won't wanna even tego ma'am azian. she'll eat you alive. honest.

i cocked up a lot since i started working. yesterday was the worse. somebody accidentally pushed me from behind and warm water trickled down on this a customer's baby (barely a year old). she looked at me before crying sia. how guilty was i, you imagine!! kalau aku boleh gendong tu budak takpe jgk! and today lagi satu peh bongong aku ni kan. i lost my grip on the tray and the two ice cream glasses dropped. aiyo. everything oso spill sia. kesian Dini kna buat ice cream lagi. sorry boss!

so far my supervisors are all kaki gerek peh org. VERY nice and good teachers. they make me feel VERY comfortable working with them around. they don't even SCOLD me. they treat me like adults and look at me as an equal. they TEGO, and they don't ASS-U-ME that i know EVERYTHING. they don't treat me like a little 7 year old in her first day of primary school. SUMPAH, TAK BEDEK. know why i caps some of the words?? saje je nak bahasakan orang (who obviously won't be reading this). so wtf if you're the manager?? even the restaurant manager very friendly and helpful towards me. even he looks at me as an equal. why can't you simply be like the rest of the crew??! sumpah aku naek menyampa nk tego kaw. if i wanna enquire anything with the crew, i always tego ANYBODY BUT HER. sheesh. eeeeeeeesh. this is the working life. i know there are bound to be people like her. so i know i gotta just push my worries (about her) aside.

moving on, BALEK ke cerita tadi. closing. the bf was so patient waiting for me to finish work. by then, it was already 11.25++ pm. wawa got to catch the last train, but not me. too bad hoh. so adie and i waited for 187 for so long. we dropped off at teck whye and walked home. thank God he was there to walk me right to my doorstep. ye la, dier orang nyer tk permit aku balek sorg mlm2 buta. by the time adie reached home, it was already 1 plus am. kesian siak matair aku. haishhh. sanggop dier amek aku daripada keje lagi ari ni.

this morning at 9 am, i woke up and straight away had my morning shower. linca kadok aku siap2 to meet wawa at westmall. we had to go take two cartons of ice cream from westmall to our outlet. cool shit seyy. mcm smuggling drug gitu. haha. tomorrow we also gotta go back to westmall to take at least a carton of creamer. tak abes2. pagi tadi tknk suro amek. doink.

best part of the day was getting to eat the ice creams after our brunch. heavy breakfast siak tuu. gereksss...

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right now, my left arm, right leg and my whole neck are hurting and aching. i wanna get used to this kinda work so can season myself already. naseb they give me good pay ohok. if not, terima kasih saje la :)

alright. i nak tido. jumpe biler2 je la ehk. i'm not sure if i can update regularly cause i'll be working a least 6 days a week now. ye, aku part time saje :) later2 can convert full time.

PS. Kalau kaw tak puas nan aku pasal whatever2 la kan, tkya nk jeling2 mate kaw yg mane pehh lawa tuu pat aku bile aku turon tpt kaw ohok. bodo. you think i wanna go westmall outlet if i know you work there?!

10:25 PM

Friday, November 20, 2009

don't deny it. i know you want me ;)

my 5th year in Regent has been a lot better than my previous years there. everybody seems more matured & friendly. i'm in talking terms with everybody except for one. i'm still confused about why we haven't been talking to each other since that day i came to school with a grouchy mood. i guess it was my fault?? but i still remember how i apologised cause a day not joking around with her could kill me. am i the egoist one here?? i bet i'm only partially at fault. nonetheless, i treasure the many months with her. eyda. you've been a great friend. a real somebody. but too bad, i'm gonna miss those times ......

so anyways, i'm not working today. neither was i working yesterday. gonna meet the bf up in a few hours time to go to the bank and settle some stuff. then gonna top up my prepaid. i urgently have to inform ma'am about my uniform. i need a smaller size. a much smaller size, actually. cause she gave me size M. can die arh. it looks like a pajamas on me ohok.

after topping up my prepaid, i gotta settle my passport sized photo for work. yay! my pic's gonna be on top of the swensen's family tree :) the other day when wawa was using my back as a table to copy down the vision, mission and pledge, i saw this awesome family tree sebelah tempat runner. ma'am saw me looking at it, so she smiled to me and told wawa and myself to bring our photos if we wanna be up on that tree as well. so cute! mcm pat kindergarten gituu kan?? so cool.

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the bf was awesome. he really was. he bought me the wallet that i was dying for. he bought me the exact one that i wanted! not the flowery2 one. not the pink, green, nor grey one. the black one!! weeeeeeee ;DDDDDDDD i'm so touched when he told me that is considered as my belated birthday present, since he's already came up with so many surprises for my birthday. so i'm thinking of getting him a nicer wallet, most preferably an authentic leather one. confirm cool shit punye!! THANK YOU ADIE!!

right. i've just finished sweeping the floor. not going to mop cause i just did that yesterday. before meeting adie, i gotta go finish doing my laundry. THEN i'm happy :) oh and speaking of laundry, i SO need a new pair of hipsters. i found a gorgeous pair at JP. once aku gaji, i'm going to get one for myself. walaupn mahal (its $39.95), aku still ok go :)

next month peh gaji, bf and i are planning to watch NEW MOON. out in cinemas on the 3rd dec. coolshit!!! alright. shall go take my morning shower now. got lots of house chores to do. brrrrr. sometimes i hate being a girl!

PS. i'm probably one of the last to know, but i still can't digest the fact that patrick swayze has passed away. omgomgomgomg.

10:28 AM

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

don't deny it. i know you want me ;)

first day of work was awesome. the tour around the whole restaurant was cool. the new colleagues are okay. no complaints. nada. everything's fine. our DM seems to be friendly after all. well, ya ofcourse she has to be strict at times right?? & now that i think of it,she is cute *chuckles* this new joey guy seems like a very fast learner. i bet he's gonna advance faster than the 4 of us newbies.

speaking of which, one is an indian, and the three others are malay girls- wawa, halima & myself :) the cool part was when we introduced ourselves among each other. turns out we're all O level school-leavers. all of the same age, except for halima- who's currently 16. who cares?? all i wanna aim for right now is to focus & give my undivided attention to this job. i shall not cock up ANYTHING anymore, that i promise you adie (& my parents).

Sir Azlan was in-charge of briefing us through our training yesterday and today. he's a great teacher,if you ask me. knows when to be funny, easy-going & strict. i was starting to wish Jessy (ex-manager) had this kinda attitude (from my previous job).

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we were given a task to memorise and understand the restaurant's settings & layouts, food and ice cream beverage knowledge ... stuff like that.

thanks to the bf who kindly came over to fetch me from work yesterday. and thanks so much to wawa for giving me a belated birthday present- eu de toilette (adds to my collection ohok.).

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will be meeting wawa later at 2 though work starts at 3, cause i thought nak belaja food knowledge tuu nan dier skali... hehe. so anyways, i'm thinking this is far worse than having to memorise those chemistry formulas from the data log sheet for O levels. but at least this is more fun than having to read through boring and dry chem notes... correct correct??

kk i'm salivating already. nanti my saliva drool all over the data sheet how?? so i'm off for now. cheers :)

PS. i'm glad my pay falls at the end of every month, just days before bf's pay. yay!

11:30 AM

Sunday, November 15, 2009

don't deny it. i know you want me ;)

^^ little Liyana playing winx club cards with me :)

^^ little Lee playing with my little sister's touchscreen.

^^ doodling on the touchscreen.
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above are overdue pictures from last week. i will be starting work tomorrow onwards. pray for me. wish me luck. i need all the luck i can get. i'm such a virgin in the F&B industry. very kental right?? oh well... there's a first time to everything, i suppose??

before meeting wawa for work, i'll be dropping by Teha's house to give her belated birthday present. it's not anything big or whatever. just something that reflects her; feminine, pretty, sexy, 17!! lol.

i don't have ANY pumps that i urgently need for work tomorrow :( sad. a girl without pumps. it's like picturing a monkey without his bananas. true? i swear i must get one ASAP !!

i was hoping adie would send me to work tomorrow, but it will somehow be the other way round. cause he finishes work at 2.30 pm, while i start work at 3 pm. will be meeting wawa at the boon lay control station at 2.30 pm some more -.-

i've been reading the new paper every day. it's like my daily dosage or something. it gets me high. i feel so restless without it ohok. siao. && speaking of which, i've been catching up with the matches that the Lions have been playing. it was such a disaster last night. really, it was. such a disorganised play. sheesh. da dpt score satu jer, semua ilang concentration. Thailand was superb though a little annoying. the Lions should have been given their penalties, but sayang ... tak dapat. soyal!

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i'll update again soon :) PS. i need a fcuking new wallet!! i fell in love with one genuine leather wallet opposite my workplace, and i am SO going to get one for myself :DDD

6:09 PM

Thursday, November 12, 2009

don't deny it. i know you want me ;)

i love my hawt baby dumpling very much for paying his fullest attention to me on my birthday. it was very sweet of him to celebrate my 17th on an overnight trip. so romantic you know!! my bf's not the mushy kind- not at all. so when he does something for me, i know he means it.

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so anyways, the overnight at ECP was not that exciting cause of the weather. the temperature was so hot that i woke up perspiring. weird right? padahal laut depan mate. i couldn't even smell the sea, let alone the fresh air in the wee hours of the morning. still, i love it!!! thank you so much adie :D

i couldn't fall asleep during the first few hours of the night. we didn't even have the mood to listen to MJ12 ohok. prior to that, i kept waking up every few minutes. i only fell into a deep slumber at 4 am. i woke up again at 6 ++ am, then went back to sleep. after that, i woke up at 7.55 am cause the sun was high up in the sky already. i could see the brightness of the day with my eyes closed ohok. siao right?!! tau tkper. such a spoiler. taking that 30 minutes long shower in the morning was so relieving tau tak. great thing was the nice cooling rain that lulled us to sleep at around 2 ++ pm. cool.

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we burst our budget, but i guess that doesn't really matter cause we only stayed for 2 days and a whole night. some time next month, adie & fonzie are planning on an overnight with a bunch of friends- me included. so we shall wait for each other's pay. haha. we'll make it 3 days and 2 nights next time round right guys :)

&& one more thing, i sure gotta wait for my menses to finish if we're ever going to have overnight outings again. cause i was so uncomfortable during the stay at ECP since i was having my menses. damn. spoiler.

this morning at 2 am gitu... i just sat outside on my own, while people were sleeping. i saw these two cats chasing each other. they made absolutely no noise sia. mcm kucing bisu gitu la. there were two white and black cats. aku ni da la penakot. ade ke the white cat climbed up the pokok beringin nearest to me and looked at me with its scary eyes when it was up there. mcm ewww gitu! then when i went to the toilet at 3 + am, i saw the black cat that i saw earlier. it was coming out of a cubicle that i used earlier the afternoon before. omg. omg. then it went away as if it knew where it was supposed to go to. da sampai a certain distant, it looked back at me. eee taknak terfiker aku!!

::: adie said they might have just been ONLY cats. nothing out of the ordinary. brrr. i hope so! i hope so...

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right. side note of it all, i had a fun time. really. thanks to adie for the liquid foundation. i really need it since mine is broken! in two days time shall be Teha's birthday. i've bought some stuff for her. hope she likes them :)

&& i'm happy that i'll be starting work on monday with wawa. woohoo!! working together aye babe??? o ya, thing is ... i'm very stupid. i accidentally gave my workplace the number of my BF, instead of mine. cause our number the same mah.. stakat number paleng blakang tuu jer laen. mine is 6, and his is 7. lol. random.

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9:59 PM

Monday, November 9, 2009

don't deny it. i know you want me ;)

^^ our first monthsary on the 091207.

^^ a few weeks after that .... after kompang practice.

^^ a year after that, during a trip to sentosa...

^^ then a year after that.... just randomly hanging out at my crib.

^^ a few months after which, i grew fatter & he grew more charming in my eyes.

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throughout exactly 2 years/ 24 months/ 730 days/ 17520 hours/ 1051200 minutes, feezady has been through uncountable ups and downs. the obstacles and challenges we experienced together only made us stronger, and is now turning things for the better. we've been in an on-off relationship in the past, but we managed to pull through the odds despite whatever.

adie, you have never failed to be by my side despite the situation. though you are the weirdest, the worse, the uncontrollable, the most stubborn, hard-headed person i've ever been in a relationship with, you're still the best. you're still my number 1 option if given many. though you've made me shed tears of pain, agony, sadness and disappointment, you still stick around and shed a light to my hopes and wishes.

through it all................

you've been spending your money on me like water. you tried to give me the best, to fulfill my wants as much as you can. you never stopped to think twice abou the money that you spent on me. you've shown me how deceiving one can look. you've taught me to never let anyone step on my head. you've always supported me in whatever decisions i made. you held on strong when i left you to cry yourself hopeless. you make me believe that a person can change within the many years to come, and patience & perserverence is what it takes. as heartless as you were, you were the one i turned to when things went rough for me. reality was harsh, but i am super duper glad you have come to your senses.

nothing has been easy on us, and the fact that our relationship doesn't have your mom's blessing adds salt to our wound. still, i have faith in you. i know you can help me make this work. there are still so many things we need to learn about each other. we still got a long way to go. well it isn't about how long we've been together, but it's about how we cherish each other in the years that has passed. and how things have changed for the better between us. it's also about how we plan to make ourselves better and more prepared in the future. it's about the lessons learnt. about what we have accomplished and what we have not. what we still need to overcome in the many years to come.

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there are so many words left unsaid, but what the hell?? as long as WE know what it is that's left unsaid between us, what does it matter to the world?? typically, bloggers like the saying, 'haters make me famous.' well, they have a point there basically. and ironically, i'm going to say it too. PEOPLE WHO JUST CAN'T SIT STILL AND CAN'T STOP BAD-MOUTHING US ARE SUPER FUGLY BUT WE LOVE THEM CAUSE THEY MAKE US FAMOUS, and come to think of it, they've made us become closer... so ya, thank you :)

adie, HAPPY 2ND YEAR ANNIVERSARY :DDDDDDDDDDDDD

8:37 AM

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

don't deny it. i know you want me ;)

first up, i gotta thank kak Lyz for lending me her touch screen phone for the meantime. thanks for trusting me with it :) second, I LOST MY SPECS IN THE BUS!!! otw to school yesterday, i dropped my specs on the seat... i think :S

next, i gotta get things off my chest. thank God chem paper yesterday was EASY!! i was so happy that i got nervous and my legs started trembling. for a slow learner like me, my last minute effort studying chem paid off. the turn off was Social Studies, though. cause the topic on Venice wasn't in ANY of the essay questions. At least i knew a thing or two about gobalisation. If not, gone case la my combined humanities!

second thing i gotta get off my chest is about the job i interviewed for. i finally have a job at Swensens in Jurong Point. i'll be starting work on the 16th November, just 5 days after my birthday. weeeee :DDDDDDDD this means i can concentrate 100% on the remaining O level papers. four more days of torture, then the real nightmare will begin. it doesn't end on the 11th november ohok. to me, that will only be the beginning. cause the results will still be pending, meaning i won't be sure how i fare. gotta wait for more than a month to know how we have all done. brrrr.... i don't mind where i end up, as long as i don't stop schooling. giving up schooling if my results are a turn off isn't of my belief.

there is still one more happy thought swimming in my head. it's none other than the successful plan for an overnight at ECP to celebrate my 17th birthday. we're going roller-blading and sure to eat like crazy. i mean, duhh! it's not called 'ton' for nothing right?? we don't sleep. like duhh! so to kill time, EATING is what we do best :)

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my future manager is very strict-looking. she looks like she can eat me anytime i fuck up at work. still, she's easy to talk to. hopefully, i will LOVE working with them all. everybody there is a malay, and majority are girls. really awkward. i've only ever worked with a lot of philippines and only 2-3 malays. haha. so i better get used to this.

there's this one guy who works there and resembles a typical matrep. he looks like Najib, though. he kept looking at me the other time, so i thought it really was him. abes member tak tego, so maybe it's just another look alike. if it IS him, then at least i got somebody whom i know there.

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next up, i gotta go do some last minute revision for tomorrow's Geography paper. i'm hoping there will be natural vegetation & development topics. no mixture of GM food pleaseee!!!

Labels: till next time ehkk....

9:47 PM

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

don't deny it. i know you want me ;)

english and e-math papers 1 & 2 are over and done with. thank goodness today's math paper 2 was doable. at least it was much better than yesterday's math paper 1. there'll be no papers tomorrow, and i'm thinking of securing myself with a full-time job before the Os are over, so that i can start working right away after the last paper.

11 november will be an exception of course. it'd be the last day of the papers, but it's also the day i turn sweet 17. who wants to work on their birthday right? last year was a nightmare, having to work on my sweet 16th. ew. so anyways, i was thinking of wanting to overnight at East Coast Park. we'll see how the plan goes on the 11th.

i've applied for four to five jobs online, and i'll be happy if at least one or two reverts to me in a few days or weeks time. i've tried applying for three jobs in sentosa and a full-time barista position in starbucks at Jurong Point. i've tried going to the wallet shop for the walk-in interview this morning, but that lady in-charge told me to come back in a few days time cause they currently do not have the application form in their outlet. i must say it's very lame of them because if there's such an offer for a walk-in interview, how can you actually NOT have ANY application form at the moment??? it's pretty stupid ohok -.-

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back to school talk here. one thing's for sure, the Os are not even close to ending. there are still so many more papers to go. Dear God, may this rough and very bumpy journey of mine turn into a smoother sailing one instead... at least so that i can last for a few more weeks of torture. Amin.

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one more thing. i'm also hoping i'll get a job asap. Amin.

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i will promise you, adie dear, that i will not repeat my past mistakes. when i started working the previous year, we fell apart. our relationship started to mean nothing to me, and i was so sure of my decision to take revenge on you for what you have done to me on our 9th monthsary. i was oblivious to your changed behaviour. i played with fire, and i know it was my fault you were at your worst. you tried to hold on and be strong, yet your efforts went down the drain. our 1st year anniversary suck balls, and it was because i chose to go through a different path, a path without you init to hold my hands when i felt lost. it was so painful for you to experience what you went through last year, and i know you're afraid things will go as haywire this time.

i promise you there are no such things as history repeating itself. i have learnt my lesson. i know what it feels like to be hurt countless of times by the person you love. BELIEVE ME. despite you hurting me more than twice or thrice, i know this relationship will go nowhere if we keep on playing this game on and on an on.... it's been a year since i have proved myself to you after that fateful incident. i hope i've already gained your trust. though not 100 %, at least more than half of it. iloveonlyyou. that's that.

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7:46 PM

Sunday, October 25, 2009

don't deny it. i know you want me ;)

it's the start of the O levels tomorrow. all the official written papers and stuff. ah crap. all the best for O level candidates yaw. omg. hopefully the Os will go by and be done with asap. i know i shouldn't take these things lightly, but i swear i can't take the stress no more. it's killing me :/

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anyhoos, i hurt my eyebrow. as in, the skin where my eyebrows are supposed to grow. friction la. the other morning, i was rushing for time because i was late to meet the bf. i kept drawing and rubbing, redrawing and rubbing some more because i didn't like the way my eyebrow looked... so, tada! my eyebrow became red. then i tried redrawing again, only to find it getting impossible to do so cause there was already a big red spot appearing. as time goes by, a wound appeared. now i have to draw my kening high2 so as not to overlap the wound. bontot right? -.- so tomorrow i have to go to school with my fringe covering half my face. grrr.

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alright. i can't talk long. the bf's here actually. he wants to use the computer for a while. hmm. will continue my story some other time :)

7:59 PM

Thursday, October 22, 2009

don't deny it. i know you want me ;) blessing.

I had my chem/bio O level practical exam this morning, and i was in shift 2. there were only 8 of us in the same shift, and the rest were in shift 3. thank God i was with the crazy bunch who at least made my day. we played stupid, crazy games while being held in the holding room for more than 2 hours. we played police n murderer, truth or dare, and some other wacky stuff. God knows what we did. and i don't think i should post them here right?? haha. you'll be disgusted ohk. believe me. *chuckles*

ms fern handed out worksheets but those darn express students (4.6, to be precise) turned them into paper airplanes instead. the whole room was messy, so Mr Zu told us to clear up before leaving. all those 'clever' people quickly gathered around the entrance, like some animal trying to get outta their cage -.- so ya, they left us sec 5 students to clean up after them. and mind you, those retards started moving their lazy ass to 'help us' only after seeing us do all the dirty work. setakat arrange chair siket, tros brambos. stupid pig -.- abehh during confinement, nak fanatic/pathetic pat Range. stupid pig. name jer express. otak letak pat jubo -.-''''''''''

*** eh you guys don't think i have anything against express students ohok. i just think the 4.6 guys and that fanatic gal is so over!! no offence ehkk :) ***

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the new computer is finally here. dad's already set up the whole thang, so i'm happily using it right now :) the flat screen is dang wide and CLEAN, which means it needs some getting used to. hehe.

sent the bf to the interchange this morning. i couldn't send him to work because i was afraid i would be late for school. kiwak. exam ni bukan sebarang exam b. Os tau. this morning sendiri aku da naek nervous macam nak kencing jer pat skirt. serious. and i feel so stupid for making careless mistakes in my bio practical. brrrrr........

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yesterday, i visited kak Lyza over at her place. baby Affan is so tiny and cute!! it's been such a long time since i last carried a new born in my arms. omg. mentak adik skg peh susa! mom says factory is officially closed -.- not fair! nad (bf's cheerleader) is my age, and she still gets a little brother :(

speaking of babies, i just read the new paper this afternoon. it's about Nikie's story. if you guys read about it yesterday, you should know what i'm talking about. i feel so angry at the father for beating her to her death. at the age of 23 months, she was already left alone at home without any adult supervision. i find that stupid. the parents wanted to go shopping, and i understand if the parents wanted to go shopping ALONE- as a couple. they should have at least left their daughter with a trusted relative right?! it's called common sense la wai!

if that's not enough, the accused (father of Nikie) forced some foreign objects into her anus. omg! it's a surprise the mother kept her trap shut when she witnessed (with her own eyes) how brutally her own daughter was beaten to a pulp.

those couples who are blessed with children should be very grateful. instead, some abuse that blessing. come on la! your children are not your rights! remember that. they are your blessing from HIM. ada paham?! *rolls eyes* tak nak anak tuu, kasi la kepada couple2 yang sampai sekarang belom ade rezeki daripada Nya. haiyo! susa laaa!
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p/s. I WANT TO WATCH SAW 6!! it will be hitting the screen on the 6th of november. i could simply win a pair of tickets for this 31st october. they're having a Halloween movie marathon, featuring Saw series, from the first all the way to the 6th movie. if only my bf could help me with the contest. it ends tonight at 11 pm and i can't enter on my own cause it's R21 -.- naseb dapat matair tua.. waakkaakkakakaka!! ehem. sorry :)

alright. four more days to our written O level paper. english, here i come :)

semoga roh arwah Nikie dicucuri rahmat. Amin.

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5:46 PM